I know – that most people are basically good.
I believe – in the existence of a higher being who created the world and the universe.
I fought – with my brother when we were kids
I am angered – by stupidity
I love – my significant other, my mother, my brother, my nephew and my friends
I need – more time in my day
I take – to much upon myself because it's just easier to do it myself than to try and teach someone else
I hear – music in my head, almost all the time.
I drink – way too much Coca-Cola
I hate – calling people I don't know
I use – weekends to catch up on sleep
I want – a family
I decided – never to stop learning new things
I like – watching water
I feel – like there's no real purpose to my life.
I wear – pants all the time. I almost never where a dress or skirt.
I left – my Radio Flyer little red wagon in Edgewood Maryland, behind Ryder court. We were moving and we couldn't find it anywhere. It was very traumatic. I was five years old.
I do – too much for other people and not enough for myself
I hope – to go back to Europe someday
I dream – very, very bizarre dreams
I drive – a Kia Spectra hatchback
I listen – to the ocean surf whenever I can. It's the only thing that truly relaxes me.
I type – everything. I hate to write longhand.
I think – about things too much. I overanalyze.
I need - a vacation
I wish – I had grown up thin.
I am - content with my life.
I compensate – for my lack of a social life by working to much
I regret – not telling my mother more often how much I loved her.
I care – for people more than I usually let them know
I should – exercise more
I am not always - tactful
I said – I would take a train trip back to Washington State someday
I wonder – Where does the term meme come from? Is it terribly self-centered - as in me - me?
I changed – my haircolor last week, again.
I cry – only in private, when I am alone.
I am not – vain about my looks.
I lose – my voice when I get really angry
I leave – For New York and Halifax in two weeks!

Countdown to Oblivion

In exactly two weeks from today, I will be on my way to my first vacation in 10 years.

I've taken long weekends here and there, but this is the first "real" vacation - a full ten days, complete with a nice cruise - since 1996.

I do hope this one goes more smoothly.

Not that the last one wasn't fun. And whatever snafus there were, that's not the reason I haven't vacated in so long.

What concerns me is, do I even know how to do this?

I need to relax. I really do. I used to be the most laid back, easy going person you could want to meet. Nothing bothered me. Now I find myself stressed out and depressed by turns.

How do you shut your mind down? How do you let go?

If I'd had kids, I think I would have been one of those moms that hauls the kids to some place new every summer, dragging them to some cultural tour or educational site instead of just letting them chill. I'm the type that needs to plan vacations. I need to study the destination, plan where to go, what to see and even where to eat. I try to make sure that everyone else has a great time, while I stress out over the whole thing. My mother raised a worrier. And she was always terrific at anything she did.

There are two really good things about this vacation. 1) It's a cruise. There's really not that much planning you can do once you've booked your cabin. We'll take one shore excursion, but other than making sure we get back on the boat, I don't really have to worry that much about the daily agenda. 2) The SO will be recuperating from surgery. Now, to the uninitiated, this would not seem to be a good thing. Except that it means that he'll *have* to take things easy. Not too much walking around, nothing strenuous. So the usual vacation March of Death from one Attraction to the next is decidedly O-U-T. I can't really plan anything, because we won't know until we get there just how much he'll be able to manage. So we'll just have to wing it and take things as they come.

I'm taking the laptop. And a book on Oracle PL/SQL. That should be relaxing...